Happiness 1

Happiness (number one because I am sure there will be more):
I am now, happier than I have been in my entire life, this past week has set me up with a few challenges, I have felt both highs and lows, and somehow feel that I have witnessed a great deal of what I have suspected about the world for some time. That is that while we think of joy and despair as two totally separate things at far reaching ends of the spectrum. The world holds them both equally and together. I am aware that this sounds confusing so I will explain myself; I have recently entered into my first serious relationship (late for a reason but well worth the wait and suffering) and one evening this week found out that the night before while I was holding my boyfriend in my arms, my friend was seriously thinking of ending his life. It makes me think (as well as worry for my friend) that at this very instant as you read this, there is someone in the world attempting suicide, there is someone making love, there is someone being molested and someone watching their child’s first steps.
So far this week I alone have; felt fantastic love and loved whilst making love, felt worried for my friend and his life, felt confused to find a friend had stolen a car, felt bored as time passed while nothing happened, felt guilty for unknowingly help steal a car (from a boy who had been hit by a train), felt imaginative as I created my own music to my own song, felt frustrated by my blocked ear, felt out of place as a young friend decided to run away (over 1000 km away) and wanted my directions, felt pain as I ripped open my foot (accidentally), felt loved and cared for as my friends mum bandaged my foot, felt sorrow for a three way love affair in which I care for all the people involved and see no happy ending to, felt elated that I had received a free CD in the mail, felt joy at seeing a text message from my boyfriend, felt relief that my friends were still alive, felt amused at lesser concerns of people older than I, and most of all throughout everything, I have felt a wondrous joy and appreciation that my life is better than I thought it could ever be.